HDIEUMDBTSB Chapter 65: Who Says It's Double Standards
Volume 2: The Road to Winning Fans
Chapter 15: Who Says It's Double Standards
"Wait a minute, so Teacher Chu, was your smoking and drinking during that time a result of resisting external public opinion pressure?" Pang Pu suddenly realized.
"I started smoking quite early, when I started having consecutive nightmares, cigarettes had some effect," Chu Zhi pondered, seeming reluctant to say, but eventually spoke out, "Drinking was because alcohol numbs the brain, and you really can't hear the voices around you."
Auditory hallucinations are impossible to control, and the feeling of not being able to hear... Of course, you can't hear when you're drunk. Wei Tongzi felt shattered today and wanted to ask, "Do you still experience auditory hallucinations now?" But she bit her tongue and restrained herself. She's still having nightmares, still smoking and drinking. It's obvious the symptoms are still there.
When depression reaches a severe level, it's not just about thinking positively. Conditions like auditory hallucinations and nightmares are already considered physical damage. Many people can't get out of severe depression. It's not a matter of reconciling with the past; it's that the brain will help you rewind, "help" you remember the experiences you least want to recall.
"I might be too verbose, but even if I'm verbose, I still need to repeat it." Chu Zhi said, "Drinking harms the liver, smoking harms the body. We should smoke less if we can, and I also want to set an example and try to quit smoking and drinking. Even though the results aren't too good given limited conditions."
Previously, many people online criticized Chu Zhi for smoking and drinking himself, yet advising others, saying he's double standards. Wei Tongzi also replied to many similar messages. Now she just wants to know, who would still say that?
"I want to express special thanks to my friend, Damao, also known as Su Shangbai." Chu Zhi said, "He has always helped me. The evidence presented during the invitation to the Small Mang Tea Talk was all collected with Damao's help. If it weren't for Damao, my path to proving my innocence wouldn't have been so smooth."
Su Shangbai? Pang Pu felt like he had heard this name somewhere.
"Isn't this Su Shangbai the newly appointed director of the board of directors of New Great Tang Limited in Guizhou Province?" Pang Pu suddenly realized.
Guizhou Great Tang has a market value of 4.87 billion in Shanghai and Shenzhen, ranking second domestically and fourth globally among sugarcane sugar companies. It produces 150,000 tons of refined sugar annually, as well as processing 320,000 tons of raw sugar and 110,000 tons of sugarcane bagasse pulp. The sugar raw materials supplied to candy companies on the market such as Xu Fuji and Wangwang are all provided by Guizhou Tang.
Although its market value is not high compared to Wangwang's nearly 100 billion market value in Hong Kong stocks, it seems weak, but in the real light industry sector, its position in the country is indeed high. It is one of the host enterprises of the China Sugar Association and is a key enterprise supported by the state. It is one of the only two sugar companies approved to establish post-doctoral research stations.
Recently, there has been a lot of turmoil about changing the helm, and the stock price has also dropped quite a bit. The chairman, Su Rui, held a press conference to clarify that he is currently in very good health and there will be no senior management changes in the next five or six years. The statement about passing on the baton to his descendants is not true. Pang Pu only paid attention because he trades stocks, so he knows whenever there's any movement.
There are indeed quite a few people with the same name and surname, but Su Shangbai's name is quite unique, and with the ability to provide evidence, he must have the capability. It's very likely that it's the same person.
Should he ask if there's any insider information? Pang Pu wanted to make a fortune, but the next moment, he cleared these miscellaneous thoughts from his mind. He must follow the program's flow, or it'll be dinner time soon.
"We must take good care of our bodies and lives. Let me think, Teacher Chu debuted over two years ago. I checked the information, and he will reach three years next March. So, in about five years, we'll be able to see Teacher Chu's free concert. Let's keep cheering on." Pang Pu wrapped up the topic. He continued, "Now let's take a look at Fengyue Treasure Mirror and see what requests the viewers in the live chat have."
A small blackboard, made to look like a mirror, as if afraid that others wouldn't know, and even wrote the words "Fengyue Treasure Mirror" on it. Did they have to force it like this?
Fengyue Treasure Mirror... sounds unserious just by its name, but Dream of the Red Chamber is also called Fengyue Treasure Mirror, and it also appears as a mirror in the twelfth chapter, crafted by Fairy Jinghuan. The program team blatantly copied it, making Chu Zhi seriously doubt whether the program planners had even read the original work.
"TT, you write." Pang Pu handed the pen to Wei Tongzi.
"Why me?" Wei Tongzi took the pen and asked.
"My handwriting is not good." Pang Pu said, "You look like a top student, and your handwriting must be beautiful."
Making someone do things with flattery, because of time constraints, usually only select four or five messages from Little Mang's viewers to reply to. Today, only two will be selected, the ones with the most messages, comments, and likes.
[When will Jiu ge's new album be released? I can't wait!]
[If "You Are Not Truly Happy" is not included in the album, I want to hear Jiu ge sing it on the show.]
Two questions, written with a pen on the Fengyue Treasure Mirror, oh no, the blackboard, Wei Tongzi couldn't help but complain, "Why bother writing it out, can't we just ask directly?"
"Can I help you get Director Mengteng's phone number and discuss the details?" Pang Pu joked.
"Let's forget it," Wei Tongzi wrote down, hmm... the handwriting on the blackboard is a bit ugly.
"It's been a long time since I used a pen to write. My handwriting used to be very nice." Because she was in front of her idol, Wei Tongzi still had to make a sly remark.
Chu Zhi looked at the questions and responded, "According to the current production progress, it will be on New Year's Eve, the first album will be released on New Year's Eve."
"Make sure to listen to Teacher Chu's songs. They're really good." Wei Tongzi added a word in edgewise.
"The second question — sure," Chu Zhi didn't expect this, he didn't want to do it again, but now... it's you who volunteered, I have nothing to do with it.
"No accompaniment, I can only sing acapella here."
Only skilled singers are not afraid of singing acapella. Chu Zhi is not a skilled singer, but he is also not afraid of singing acapella because he has the Voice of Despair, which can be better expressed without accompaniment.
Kind-hearted Chu Zhi, prepared to use 60% of his strength, stronger than when he participated in "I Am a Singer" singing "Deserted Island," after all, "You Are Not Truly Happy" has strong feelings of sadness in the beginning. Although it becomes uplifting later, he's really afraid of singing it at 90% and making people suicidal. You have to understand that the atmosphere in the live broadcast room right now is not good.
"In the crowd, crying. You just want to become a transparent color, you won't dream anymore, or feel pain or excitement. You've decided, you've decided. You quietly endure it, tightly hold onto yesterday in your fists, and the sweeter the memories, the more hurtful they are."
Three lines of lyrics were sung from Chu Zhi's mouth. This song wasn't rehearsed, but he at least got two and a half lines right.
But in this situation, being off-key doesn't match the emotions. "Quietly" should be pronounced softly, "tightly" should be pronounced heavily, and "hurtful" even needs to be deformed. When listened to, it sounds like "shèng nín" (上忍).
"The more densely packed and shallowly cut in the palm of your hand, the deeper the wounds. You are not truly happy, your smile is just the protective color you wear, you've decided not to hate, and you've decided not to love, locking your soul in the forever locked shell."
Chu Zhi seemed to be singing about himself.
The song "Deserted Island," with the support of the Voice of Despair, feels like being separated from a loved one, while "You Are Not Truly Happy" is about fear.
It's like being bitten by a snake once and being afraid of the well rope for ten years.
In the voice, there's a sense of caution, a despair of fear, wanting to avoid being hurt, only self-sealing, building up thick defenses.
Just like poetry: You said you don't love planting flowers because you're afraid of seeing the flowers withering. So, to avoid all endings, you reject all beginnings.
Not hating, not loving, the soul is forever locked in the forever locked shell. Wei Tongzi can be sure that her idol has not come out, or is still troubled by depression.
"In this world, you laughed. So you laughed with the crowd, when survival is a rule, not your choice."
Jelly is a professional photographer. He has always thought that this guest looks pretty when he smiles, mainly because of his good looks. He's even better than what the fans blow up online about some smiling angel named Li Xingwei. But listening to this song, he realized that Chu Zhi is giving his smile to others, not leaving a single bit for himself.
He's the Holy Father, genuine, Jelly inwardly evaluates. He's the Holy Father, not a Holy Father Bitch.
"You are not truly happy, your wounds never fully heal, I stand to your left, but it's like across the Milky Way. Do we really have to hold onto regrets until we're old?"
Chu Zhi's singing suddenly became passionate, "You deserve true happiness, you should take off the protective color you wear, why should you be punished after losing?"
"Can't we just end all the sadness at this moment and start living again?"
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